Graduating college this Thursday (expect piccies! >D ), party Saturday - and throughout all of it, I've been packing for the last several days.
I'm also extremely sleepy- this better not be a mono flareup right when I don't need one!
But I'm going to be moving out of state and on my own (finally!), so my appearance here will be spotty/nonexistent into the first week of June or so while I get myself set up. Sheesh, I have so much -stuff- I've got left to pack and I've been packing for days already! ^^ (But I'm finally moving out- woohoooo!)
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Moving (canceled)
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Last edited by Fuzzy on Wed May 23, 2007 5:37 pm, edited 1 time in total.
yay! grats on every count!!
1) living out from where you've been is always, ALWAYS good.
2) Pack Food Items, silverware and dishes LAST if you have to pack them. ... Really honest to goodness, you will wind up somewhere with nothing to put your food in lol.
Now that you've gradie'eted whatchu gonna be doing?
1) living out from where you've been is always, ALWAYS good.
2) Pack Food Items, silverware and dishes LAST if you have to pack them. ... Really honest to goodness, you will wind up somewhere with nothing to put your food in lol.
Now that you've gradie'eted whatchu gonna be doing?
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1) YUP! It's been way too long. My doctors wanted me out at 18 but thanks to no dorms at college, I couldn't.
2) Definitely ^^ I've got a silverware set (4th generation- wow!), bowls and glasses so far. They're gonna be put in the car so I won't forget which box is what.
Getting a part time (can't do full time yet, the health isn't there) sitting down job at whatever's available. ^^'
2) Definitely ^^ I've got a silverware set (4th generation- wow!), bowls and glasses so far. They're gonna be put in the car so I won't forget which box is what.
Getting a part time (can't do full time yet, the health isn't there) sitting down job at whatever's available. ^^'
... or not..
Okay, so I had several offers and the very last one (half BR, half kitchen studio for 600/mo, already too expensive for me by 300 bucks) just fell through.
Why did it fall through? Because my future roommate's mother decided:
1) My PC (which was at her house to be fixed by my roommate) is green-colored, therefore I'm a gay pothead trying to get into her son's pants.
2) Because I'm trans, I'm a 'bad influence' on her (alreadyinthecloset) son (who is trans and had failed attempts to tell them throughout his life) and they don't want any "deviant behavior" (especially since said son was also last year being threatened to be disowned because people online were sending him hate-mail and destroying his PC equipment due to different opinions in religious choice).
All this on top of her cheery-smiled, "Oh, you're a good person, you can come here any time you want" the last time I saw her.
I don't know how much longer I can take the constant getting my hopes up only to see them be destroyed. It's been like this constant up and down for the last 6 years.
Tomorrow, I graduate, yes, but my whole family thinks I have a perfect job and place to live waiting for me (in order to get them to stop harassing/abusing me, I had to lie to them telling them I had both, when I had no job and several offers to go through). Because of my health, I can only work part time. Everyone wants at least 600 a month or higher up here. My mate down in FL says I can go live with him but I don't have the funds to do it, which begs the immediate question of 'where am I going to go now?'.
I'm trying my hardest not to give up, but there's practically nothing for me in the world. No one in my field takes an associate's in graphic design; everyone wants a BA. I can't do standing-up work; I need a sitdown job 20 hours a week (I tried 25 sitting down last January and I nearly croaked). My chronically ill grandmother now officially has ten diagnosed diseases that are taking over her body, my grandfather's getting extremely sick because he abused his body his whole life, and the only stability in my life has been my recovery from mono, my gerbil and the internet. I can't claim suicide because 1) too smart for that, 2) it'd hurt everyone who knows me, 3) it's not myself I have a problem with, it's with all the obstacles in my life.
I really don't know what to do at this point... I apologize for the griping (seems like it's happening to me all the time online), but my last IRL friend was said roommate-to-be and he's busy bawling his eyes out somewhere.
Sorry..
Okay, so I had several offers and the very last one (half BR, half kitchen studio for 600/mo, already too expensive for me by 300 bucks) just fell through.
Why did it fall through? Because my future roommate's mother decided:
1) My PC (which was at her house to be fixed by my roommate) is green-colored, therefore I'm a gay pothead trying to get into her son's pants.
2) Because I'm trans, I'm a 'bad influence' on her (alreadyinthecloset) son (who is trans and had failed attempts to tell them throughout his life) and they don't want any "deviant behavior" (especially since said son was also last year being threatened to be disowned because people online were sending him hate-mail and destroying his PC equipment due to different opinions in religious choice).
All this on top of her cheery-smiled, "Oh, you're a good person, you can come here any time you want" the last time I saw her.
I don't know how much longer I can take the constant getting my hopes up only to see them be destroyed. It's been like this constant up and down for the last 6 years.
Tomorrow, I graduate, yes, but my whole family thinks I have a perfect job and place to live waiting for me (in order to get them to stop harassing/abusing me, I had to lie to them telling them I had both, when I had no job and several offers to go through). Because of my health, I can only work part time. Everyone wants at least 600 a month or higher up here. My mate down in FL says I can go live with him but I don't have the funds to do it, which begs the immediate question of 'where am I going to go now?'.
I'm trying my hardest not to give up, but there's practically nothing for me in the world. No one in my field takes an associate's in graphic design; everyone wants a BA. I can't do standing-up work; I need a sitdown job 20 hours a week (I tried 25 sitting down last January and I nearly croaked). My chronically ill grandmother now officially has ten diagnosed diseases that are taking over her body, my grandfather's getting extremely sick because he abused his body his whole life, and the only stability in my life has been my recovery from mono, my gerbil and the internet. I can't claim suicide because 1) too smart for that, 2) it'd hurt everyone who knows me, 3) it's not myself I have a problem with, it's with all the obstacles in my life.
I really don't know what to do at this point... I apologize for the griping (seems like it's happening to me all the time online), but my last IRL friend was said roommate-to-be and he's busy bawling his eyes out somewhere.
Sorry..
Jeez, fuzz, that ... is totally ass.
That's also... waaaay too much for a half a bedroom and some shared space. Where IS this? Maybe it would be to your best interest to actually just fake it and GO to florida, and see how it goes. Because ... yikes every turn.
*hugs*
That's also... waaaay too much for a half a bedroom and some shared space. Where IS this? Maybe it would be to your best interest to actually just fake it and GO to florida, and see how it goes. Because ... yikes every turn.
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^_^* hehe. New Hampshire, actually. The entire state is demanding at least $600 even for a roomshare. They're enjoying all us Massholes coming up north to escape MA's high prices. XD
After some hardcore bitching to my grandmother I came up with the idea that I was subconsciously trying to force myself to fit everyone else's molds, and it wasn't working for the people in question. Then I was just disgusted at the whole realization of myself *doing* that because I thought I was 'better' than that. >_< I value my sense of self quite highly and the prejudice forced me to look at the sense of ego I had built up without noticing. Man, it's been an emotional rollercoaster. All that, then graduating yesterday, then the BS yesterday..
But heck, I don't wanna be in Florida! XD I get severely heatsick and easily (collapsed last night after graduation as a matter of fact, for 6 hours!).
Sooo, that leaves one plan for now: get myself a sitting down part time job in the area and get paid!
More apologies, geez. ._O I must drive you all nuts. *should win the "Most Absent-forum poster" award or something*
After some hardcore bitching to my grandmother I came up with the idea that I was subconsciously trying to force myself to fit everyone else's molds, and it wasn't working for the people in question. Then I was just disgusted at the whole realization of myself *doing* that because I thought I was 'better' than that. >_< I value my sense of self quite highly and the prejudice forced me to look at the sense of ego I had built up without noticing. Man, it's been an emotional rollercoaster. All that, then graduating yesterday, then the BS yesterday..
But heck, I don't wanna be in Florida! XD I get severely heatsick and easily (collapsed last night after graduation as a matter of fact, for 6 hours!).
Sooo, that leaves one plan for now: get myself a sitting down part time job in the area and get paid!
More apologies, geez. ._O I must drive you all nuts. *should win the "Most Absent-forum poster" award or something*
hecknaw! Teh fuzzbutt is important!
.... You could do tech support sitting down, if you find a company that hasn't outsourced
.... You could do tech support sitting down, if you find a company that hasn't outsourced
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kshau-protectorate.com
kshau-protectorate.com
^_^ Hey, whatever makes me money and has my butt in relatively one spot, I'm happy.
I'm also very fortunate- got $165 total from the family in checks (OMG! O.O' That's more than I've -ever- seen at once), so I'm gonna start up a bank account and stash it. I've got $40 in my wallet for gas right now (and half a tank of gas), so when next week rolls around, I'm starting jobhunting. ^^
I'm also very fortunate- got $165 total from the family in checks (OMG! O.O' That's more than I've -ever- seen at once), so I'm gonna start up a bank account and stash it. I've got $40 in my wallet for gas right now (and half a tank of gas), so when next week rolls around, I'm starting jobhunting. ^^
