*Headdesk*

[Cy]

So it seems like my stories get more outrageous each time I come back.

I've been gone the past couple of months because first I was homeless and couch hopping [made it all the way across North Carolina to the beach and back] and then I finally found a place in Concord, before moving to Asheboro with my boyfriend and his mom. And then our house burned down. He and his mom were at church and I was at home sleeping. Long story short, my dogs started going crazy and I woke up in the last room to burn, so had to work my way downstairs. Luckily the only fatality was Absinthe, our red tail boa. The four dogs and the cat were fine, but I lost everything I had ever owned. All my clothes, years of artwork, all my art supplies, my camera, my computer, all my shoes, everything. And then, just when I was picking up the pieces back home with my mother, my grandmother goes and kicks the bucket exactly 6 months after her husband.

So that has been my past few months in a nutshell.

Obviously I'll be working on things sporadically. My boyfriend is trying to see if he can salvage the harddrive out of the old CPU so I have all my dragoning files back.

[StarFyre]

Holy wow, Cy. That's some life you've been living recently. *hug!* Here's to hoping things get back on track for you sometime soon!

[Shard]

Holy crap, man. Shit, were you Hitler in your last life?! *Hugs* I'm sorry about the snake, that's a shame, glad it wasn't more and GLAD IT WASN'T YOU!

[Cy]

Iono man Shard. I musta done somethin' pretty bad hahaha.

I'm trying to keep the positive outlook of "Well, if all the bad shit happens early, then the rest of life should go smoothly."

I did, however, enjoy the few weeks I stayed out at the beach :] I made a lot of new friends in addition to some older ones I already had out there, and I got to work for a few days in a tattoo shop and play around with things in there. Went to a couple of music festivals around the state, including a three day camping celtic fest in the mountains.

I feel totally backlogged with art and writing, but I'm trying to get a job here and get my life straightened out.

We're fighting with my boyfriend's insurance company right now because they're saying they're not going to cover anything I lost, because I'd been living at his house less than 6 months and my mail was still going to a different address, and obviously my mom's insurance doesn't want to cover anything because all my stuff was in someone else's house.

[Cy]

So I was out with friends Monday night when my mom called me and told me I needed to come home and pack my stuff and find somewhere else to live. I'm pretty much to the point now I don't know why I ever bother going home.

My internet will be sporadic at best, since I am currently staying in a car with two dogs >.> I'll try and hop on every now and then. and try to keep updating pages to upload on my laptop when I can chill somewhere with an outlet :]

[Dray]

D: Augh, crazy-moms!

Hope to see you again soon... take it easy, Cy!

[Shard]

Hugs. Seriously. There's gotta be something better for you.

[Cy]

It more has to do with my younger sister.

Growing up, I got the method where I had to fend mostly for myself. No coddling, no getting my way when i cried. I've always had to do chores for anything I wanted.

But because my sister is "ADHD", that's her way out of everything. Cut up mother's 300$ sheets? All she has to do is say she doesn't know why she did it. Flush an entire box of my contacts down the toilet? Doesn't know why she did it. Shave the dog. Doesn't know why she did it. She can "clean" the bathroom, and my mom will give her 80$. She comes home with Vera Wang purses, new shoes, new clothes, etc. I get clothes from a thrift store. My mom never seems to see this. We've fought about it off and on, because my sister is 14, but acts like she's 7. My family turns the other cheek for her for everything.

We came to heads that day when I told her how much I resented my sister for her treatment. My mom told me I didn't mean it, and that if I really did, I'd tell my sister to her face. Sooooo I did. I told her she was a stuck-up brat, spoiled as shit, and that she'd never know what it was like to really want for anything, or work for anything. My sister cried, and I was told to pack my bags.

It's just something that has always gotten me. I've been in and out of foster homes, childcare, and wards, and she sits on her ass scratching up the screen of her PSP just because she knows my mom will get her a new one.

She's never had a hand lain on her, but I got the traditional leather belt treatment, and occasionally a metal spatula.

It just gets my goat that a parent can be so hot and cold between their children.




In more on topic news, I do have a place to stay now, so the next time I can run by my mom's and pick up my CPU, I should be back around again :]

[Shard]

Wow.... Well, I'm VERY glad you've got a place now.

Having grown up essentially an only child, but with a sexual predator for an older brother, I never noticed what kind of favoritism my mother gave him, over me, until I moved in with her and he left for Reno. I'll always be the bad child, even though he shot himself because they were going to investigate complaints of touching. Sucks to be the one left out, I think. But, it also makes separation much easier.

You need anything, just yell.

[Rachael]

I am so sorry. =/ I had a much, much lesser version of all of that, that in my incredible wittiness as a youngster, I called "Angel Syndrome," where only one child could be held accountable, or rather, only one child was lifted beyond being accountable for themselves or their actions, or was favored over the other(s) for no sound logical reason, and the consequences played out from that favoritism. [It was very little stuff with me, such as the fact I was supposedly forming my sister's future and the one who made her the trouble she got into, or helped her stub her toes when she was playing a house or a mile away from me, silly things that met with my equally silly anger at the time.]

I am very glad to hear you have a place to be, now, and *SNUGS* we love you, in our internet, have our love way. =)

And you too Shard. You're a damn good "kid" that any mother should be damn proud of having had.

[Cy]

Thanks, both of you, and I'm sorry about that Shard. I hate that people have to have such hard times in the most important and vital parts of their lives. And we deal with them in different ways, so it's hard to tell how it will affect someone.